It has been a long while since I looked at this site. A good thing yes... Today was a good day. Yesterday I had my 6 month scans. A Pet/CT scan and an MRI. Is it sad that I am now so used to the scans that I am starting to fall asleep in the tubes? LOL, the MRI tech was getting mad because I would fall asleep and twitch, then they had to do the sequence again... He kept talking to me every so many minutes to make sure that I was still awake. After the scans my nerves set in. Luckily, work has been so busy that I haven't really had much time to think about anything else. My appointment with the oncologist was today. The moment I left work I was a total wreck. I think I cried the whole way home. I prayed for strength and courage. But I knew that one word from the doctor could turn my world upside down. Just one word.
I got to my appointment an hour early. Anxious? Why yes... I just wanted to know. I gave it to God. I put it in his hands and asked that he take care of my daughter and give me strength. They led me to the room and took my vitals. Blood pressure, perfect. Pulse: 132. Just a wee bit nervous. As I was walking to the room I overheard the doctor order a same day MRI for a patient whose cancer spread to their bone. I just about tossed my cookies. The 132 pulse rate makes more sense now, huh? He finally came into the room and starts off by telling me everything is fine and I have nothing to worry about. This is why I love my doctor. He hasn't seen me in six months and he can read me like a book. I am cancer free. We talked more about my case. Things that will never go back to normal, things to look out for. He was really happy about my weight loss and to hear that I turned vegetarian. Told me I was doing a good job and it was very apparent. I don't have to see him for another six months.
Today, is not only the day that I found out that I am still cancer free. It is also my anniversary. Today, nineteen months ago, I was declared disease free. And I am happy to report that I am still cancer free. When I was first told that I was cancer free, I was shocked. I knew that I had a long road ahead still with the chemo and radiation treatments, but I kicked cancer's butt. I was ready to take on anything. Now 19 months later, I feel like I have not done anything that I wanted to do. I wanted to make a difference. Liposarcoma is such an obscure cancer. I have only met one other person that fought it. I have met other types of sarcoma survivors, but even those were still few and far between.
In this next year I have three goals that I would like to achieve. First, I want to walk a 5k. Cancer took a good amount of my muscle. I want to work to show that even though cancer took my muscle, I am strong enough to overcome it physically. So I will be getting off my lazy bum and making it happen. Second, I want to make a difference in someone's life. I found an organization that matches survivors to patients usually with the same type of cancer. They call and visit during their treatments. I would like to volunteer and help someone with their journey. I think it would also help me with some of the issues and fears I face as well. Third, I will start writing my manuscript. It will be therapeutic for me to get it all out (bonus: no co-pays on therapy bills!) and hopefully if I can get it published, may end up helping someone on their own personal journey. Topping it off with graduation next semester. What an awesome year ahead!
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