day one of round four...

The first day of chemo is the most nerve wracking. I have to willingly drive up to the center and wait for them to jab a needle into a port in my chest and start pumping me full of poison. I get really nervous on the drive up and my tummy starts to hurt. I have to take a xanex as part of my pre-meds. The last round they upped my dose from .5 to 1, which was Way too much. This time I cut them in half. I also have a lidocaine cream that I put on my port on the way up there. I sat waiting in the lobby for maybe an hour, not quite sure. Then they finally had a chair but it took a while for them to finally access my port. I had a different girl this time, she was pretty good. She talked to me through the whole thing asking how work was going. With the lidocane cream it I can barely feel the prick of the needle and she got a good blood return. It was better than the last access, so I was happy. Then I have to wait for them to process my blood work to make sure that my counts are good to start. When they start the pre-meds, I start feeling kinda loopy and I knock out. My aunt said that I was sleeping with my mouth all hanging open. I think I woke up in time for them to start the doxo, but then I was out again. Then before I knew it they had my pump hooked up and it was time to go. Which I slept the whole way home and then crawled into bed for more sleep. Now I have woken up only to remember that I have a 900 word business law paper due by 2am and I have no idea how I am going to pull that one off...